let me complicate you
for no other reason than I need that
allow my strange diversions
propriety's inversions to unfold

so I am told
each shadow stalks me
walks with me
do you fault me?

I don't hesitate
no, I don't wait
but somehow I
...procrastinate

when all I want is you to hold
and damn I want to touch you
one hand to your belly
and one to your sway

pushing down, blood burns
pulse pounds
listen to the sound of groaning in your ear
but you are not here

lover, I am alone
if you were near would you touch me
clutch me and then walk away?
Stay.